8 years ago today everything changed. I often find these night-before times challenging. Tonight, it hurts. Sam is 8 tomorrow. This time 8 years ago I was going into labor and I was ecstatic, scared, excited- so many things. Jas and I were busting to be parents, my pregnancy was a dream, the baby was healthy, I had dreamed of being a mummy and it was about to happen! I remember in all of these emotions, sitting on the edge of my bed that night and praying this prayer: "Jesus, do whatever it takes to rid me of this anxiety, so that my children never have to suffer." I didn't realise the answer to that prayer was 12 hours away, and I didn't realise just how much it would cost to see that prayer answered. I had an easier way in mind, just take the anxiety I had suffered all my life, away. In one big magic trick, ready... And gone. But Jesus loves me way too much to let me get what I want without the character and hard yards, and I am forev...
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