Anchored To Hope

Hello and welcome to the festive season! Our house was all ablaze yesterday with christmas decorations and the pageant and lights. Jason in this case, is definitely more the kid than Sam and I. Actually, Sam is quite the same as his dad and for those who know Jas, one of the first things you would know about him is that he is christmas obsessed. When he was 4 he told his mum that his dream when he grew up was to be Father Christmas. That dream unfortunately, still rings true in Jas's ears :) Bless his cotton ( and holey) socks off. So I had 2 kids yesterday ( inclusive of the big kid) running around the house singing and dancing. Sam was yelling "merry christmas and a happy new your" in his little accidental american accent ( I blame sesame street). I love how he is still mixing words up, I know that wont always be the case, but for now things like 'fat battery' and 'hide and sink' and still very cute and funny. I had one of those moments where you stop ...

Well hello there dear friends. Wow it has been a little while, I will explain a little later why I havent posted recently. Welcome to those who have never been here before, can I please encourage you to go all the way back to the start and read the first blog to get a good background of the purpose and subject of this blog. Thanks xxoo So...time has passed. But it has been good time, worth while time. Last time I posted I talked about my thoughts and how they were holding me captive. Controlling them with my own choice, and with the help of God has been life changing. I still am at a point where I do feel Depersonalised but I have come to be at peace with the fact that this may be permanent and after everything, I feel that is ok with me. I do fall into the victim trap if I am not careful. I think I deserve to be well and enjoy my son, and although that sounds fair, that is not at all what life is about. It isnt why I was created, or what I was created for.  This revelation that...